A few years ago I watched Tim Burton’s “Alice in Wonderland” and absolutely loved it. As I watched, however, it took a lot to fight back the tears. It was like watching a fantastical version of my own life.
Precocious imaginative child grows up to become a mere shadow of her real self. She has completely forgotten who she was. While doing her best to please everyone around her and live up to societal expectations she loses her muchness and now believes “I don’t slay, I couldn’t even if I wanted to.”
I didn’t like that person. I didn’t want to be her anymore. I have chosen to reclaim my muchness, and I’d love to help you do the same.
When the movie “Mom’s Night Out” appeared in theaters I began hearing wonderful reviews, so I looked up the trailer. I must admit I was appalled. This is portrayed as a good, fun, Christian film and I just could not believe the main story line. Idiot husbands can’t handle a few kids. Really? REALLY? This… [Continue Reading]
What is Intimacy Often people hear that word and think “sex” and nothing more. To me, however, intimate is a word that oozes vulnerability, openness, communication, and so many more things that many of us struggle with. It is something I struggle with. Something I desperately desire and yet still shy away from. Intimacy is something… [Continue Reading]
In the book “Why Does He Do That?” Lundy Bancroft outlines ten types of abusers. You can see the brief description of each type in my previous post on identifying types of abusive men. Today we are going to dive more into the mindset of the Victim The Attitudes That Drive the Victim Abuser The… [Continue Reading]
How often have you felt alone, unappreciated, or just plain weird? I know I do, a LOT!! When you feel like a misfit you often tend to turn that into feelings of inadequacy. “I’m not good enough because I don’t do…..”, or self doubt “should I be doing this instead of that?” Sometimes being a… [Continue Reading]
What is Zentangle? I have recently discovered and fallen in love with doodle drawings also commonly called Zentangle or doodle drawing. This type of art has been around since the beginning of man, but has recently experienced a resurgence in popularity due to Rick Roberts and Maria Thomas giving it the name Zentangle and dictating… [Continue Reading]
WHAT IS MUCHNESS?
Muchness is living your life with intention. Muchness is facing your fears head on and not letting them stop you. Muchness is taking the trials of life and letting them make you stronger. Muchness is vulnerability. Muchness is being real. Muchness is being willing to know yourself, your thoughts, your emotions, your strengths, and your weaknesses. Muchness is being the best you that you can possibly be.
MY PURPOSE IS TO FORGE AN ARMY OF WARRIOR WOMEN WHO KNOW THEIR WORTH AND LOVE THEMSELVES
You can’t love others until you love yourself. You can’t fully give yourself to motherhood when you don’t know who you are. You can’t be a true helpmeet to your husband if you aren’t able to be strong for yourself. You matter. You are important.
Who Am I?
I am a homeschooling mom of 9 kiddos struggling to remain sane amidst the chaos. I am the wife of an addict dealing with betrayal trauma induced PTSD. I am a former US Marine. Those are the things I lost myself in for so long. I am more than that.
I am a recovering emotional stuffer and chronic wallflower. I am learning to be unapologetically me instead of shrinking to fill someone else’s box. I love to talk and more importantly to teach and encourage. I am an artist. I am a writer. I am a bookworm and learn-it-all. I am a beloved daughter of God.